Mindful in the Middle Seat

On the Question of Flying

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What does it mean to stay awake in the seat of complicity?

This short talk, offered a few years ago in dialogue with Project Inside Out and Dr. Renée Lertzman, emerged from my personal practice of facing the discomfort of flying during a time of deepening climate crisis. “Mindful in the Middle Seat” is an invitation to sit, literally and figuratively, in the awkward, unavoidable spaces between care and harm, between longing and resignation, between awareness and the reflex to numb.

Rather than prescribing solutions, can we invite a practice of compassionate inquiry? What if the middle seat becomes a site of presence, even a movement in the direction of repair? What wisdom arises when we resist our habituated escape routes and instead stay with the unresolvability of it all?

Highlights

I am connected to life. I am part of this life and I feel the reality, the incremental impact of what is happening here, the vulnerability of that, the truth of my interbeing. We’re welcoming and we’re attuning. We’re listening then for what comes up.

Our tendency is to tune out, to turn away but the invitation here is to tune in and really, we’re all in a middle seat here. We see the impact, we see that we’re contributing to climate crisis and we wonder from where will change come. It hurts to feel that separation but what is possible when we hang out with it and feel our connectedness.

I want to invite us to consider that all of those are some form of disconnect, even shame and despair, even anger, a way of avoiding the raw, shaky, uncertain experience of what’s happening. This is painful. There are ramifications of sitting on that flight, not just for the world but for this heart. That it is painful is also of course evidence of our belonging, of our interdependence. Our bodies and hearts and minds are bound to this world and it would not hurt if it were not so.

And then there’s the material and the social impact. The material impact, this incremental contribution to climate breakdown, as small as it is, it’s incremental contribution. And then there’s the social contribution, normalizing that choice, going with the flow, not challenging and actually incrementally strengthening the expectations, signaling it’s okay to fly through our embodied action. It’s kind of like not wearing a mask if we know that masks are necessary to protect life but here we are engaging in it. And so of course we feel ambivalent about it, of course there’s that internal dilemma.

I just want to offer a few alternatives, which is that we look at the possibility of having a reciprocal relationship, that there can be this recognition, respect for the other who is impacted, even the seeking of consent in a spiritual way, the aspiration to repair, to restore, perhaps to dedicate this flight to say may it serve, may it serve the living earth community and all that I love. I know there’s a sacrifice here as I acknowledge the life that is being taken. And in a spiritual sensibility, we can recognize the sacredness, to honor the sacrifice.

Co-founder and Director

Kristin is co-founder and director of One Earth Sangha whose mission is to cultivate a Buddhist response to ecological crises. She is a graduate of Spirit Rock’s Community Dharma Leader program and now teaches with the Insight Meditation Community of Washington (DC). As a co-founder of White Awake, Kristin has been supporting white people since 2011 with a Dharma approach to uprooting racism in ourselves and in our world. With a background in software engineering as well as environmental management, she has worked at several international environmental organizations. She is a GreenFaith Fellow and serves on the advisory board of Project Inside Out as well as the steering committee for Interfaith Power & Light DMV. Kristin was born and raised in northern New Mexico and currently lives in Washington DC, traditional lands of the Piscataway peoples.

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